||[Mar. 26th, 2006|06:59 pm]
|||||Johnny Cash "Hurt"||]|
I don't know what is going on but of late all I feel is empty ,in my heart and soul . like any thing I do matters to any body or even my self . I feel like a empty shell of the man I used to be . All of my "friends" even the ones I thought where close seem to be ingoring me for what reason I don't know . when I am around them I feel more lonely then I ever have in my life . everything I once loved in my life seems to be bleak to me now video games,books,music,card games everything has lost it's meaning for me even my life seems to be worthless but to my family it is not and maybe someone out the my life means the world to them . I wonder if I have meet her or not ? oh well . I don't know if I am going to go to otakon this year or not it really doesn't seem like it now but who knows I may change by then but very doubtfull. All I am going to do is focus on moving out on my own get a nice little apartment for my self where i can be alone from the crule world and all the fake people in this world
"Have you seen my will to live, I have seem to miss placed it"
Blood Hound Gang
"Beware the seeds you sow and the corps you reap . Do not curse God for the punishment you inflict upon your self."
Dune: House Harkonnen